I’ve been emotionally drained and tired.  Quiet, mental breakdowns in class, Tempers flaring at the most random moments, Unable to release the pain.  I can’t let it go because it’s involving someone I truly care about, and I feel like it’s not going to be resolved.  I know my contemplation about suicide this time around is serious because it’s been almost 3 1/2 months.  The other instances can’t even compare to how dead and numb I am internally.  On the outside, smiles and laughs.  Here in my room, I am tormented by what people did.  Tried to stay strong this entire time.  How long until I can be relieved of this agony?  Betrayal doesn’t ever come from enemies.  I’m near the end of my rope. No one would care. All they needed were the resources I could offer? Me?  Not so much. 

So this is what it’s really like to have the urge of offing yourself.  And my birthday is tomorrow…how symbolic.  I can’t take this shit anymore.

It’s been too long, my old friend. Time to get back to work🎶🎶 #music #songwriting #guitar #crafter #acoustic #inspired


My buddy Tom baked a cake for his Argentinian friend to cheer her up after the world cup loss.

…they are no longer friends.

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